Between Naps
Pisces (Feb 18 - Mar 19): Sticking with a no-win situation pays off. It's been an ordeal, but Pluto rewards those who brave its trials. Enjoy the kinder, gentler side. ( Today's S.F. Chronicle)
The very fact of writing and scanning a photograph means I feel better. "Kinder, gentler side"? Why not? For the first time I'm looking around my digs and thinking "hmmm", time to expand my horizon beyond these surroundings: bed (tired and hurting), kitchen (hungry, sort of), computer (can't focus and it hurts to sit down), back to bed (tired). This is good, the first day I've felt this way since the operation. I said the prostate result was the end of a chapter. It could have been the end of the story. Time to get on with the next chapter and time to be sure it's one that works, a jump, so to speak.
Doesn't mean a big jump, or, at least, what looks from the outside like a big jump. Doesn't mean I'll be any less a recluse, doesn't mean I'll stop or start shooting pictures, write a book, not write a book (believe me, I'm not volunteering) keep the journal, start something else. These changes have been evolving over time, focused for these last few months on this flip the coin prostate question, changes I realize I've been making since well before the journal. Good. I feel good whole minutes at a time here this Saturday morning near a lake in Oakland. Change comes slowly, but change comes, kicking and screaming, between naps.
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